Daily Journal – Jun 20, 2017

This is 81st journal.

Today is just another day in office. I spent most of the day testing out the changes done. Then I also tested out the loading of external users and their respective roles into the Identity Manager.

During lunch, I had another talk with my manager and he asked me so far how’s my mood and how it’s affecting my work. Well, the conclusion was I already lost interest and that my work quality has fallen drastically and that he was cleaning up after my mess. I’m sorry.

Then he asked me if I wanted to take a long break, unpaid ones or that I wanted to just drop the whole thing and move on. Deep down, I know, I’m already leaning towards the latter. It’s just that I hadn’t been looking actively either. I guess I’m severely burnt out and don’t want to do anything. Even if I take that long break, I can’t be sure if I want to continue doing what I was doing.

Anyway, I’m leaning towards maybe go into doing part-time work instead of full-time. It is so that I’m not completely penniless and that I’m still doing something that give me experience.

A friend of mine suggested that I find work from Upwork. I think maybe I will give that a try. In the meantime, I shall be filling up application forms too for full-time job and going for interviews to see what’s out there. This is not the time where I will be jumping the gun and choosing the company that offer me first. Made that mistake once, won’t make it again.

Here I conclude my journal for today.