Daily Journal – Jun 22, 2017

This is my 83rd journal.

I can barely even write this journal. I’m forcing myself to. I’m actually completely burnt out. Making matter worse, it’s feeding into my existing depression. There is the lingering thought of taking the easy way out. But my self-preservation is strong enough to hold me back.

Anyway, I could barely get out of bed this morning.

Once at work, I could barely stay awake. I dosed off several times. Even when traveling from customer’s site back to office to print some stuff, I dosed off on the train. My emotions are little raw. Everything just feels so overwhelming. I’m having tension headaches too.

So I decided that I have enough. The interview yesterday rekindled something that I have always liked.

Without further hesitation, I actually went and prepared my resignation letter, got it printed, and signed it. I will put into an envelope and will be handing it in tomorrow. Normally, the practical course of action before resigning would be to get a job first. But I’m just so burnt out that I decided against it. A career break is now necessary. I need to reset myself and find the desire again to do what I want to do. I don’t want my new employer to hire a burnt out employee.

I hope that after this ordeal, I come out stronger and better.

Here I conclude my journal for today.