Journal #153 – Reorienting myself

I’m writing this journal on my phone without the use of my iPad Pro or MacBook. This mark the maybe fourth time I’m writing my journal this way.

Anyway, I wasn’t sure how I am going to write this journal today at first. I’m feeling a bunch of emotions today but mostly of the depressive sort.

It could be that I was having some adaptation issues. Or it could be other reasons. It doesn’t matter.

I took some time off from work, went to see my psychiatrist, talked for a bit, and then got a memo to give to my employer’s doctor. After settling the medical stuff, I went back office.

The final decision regarding what I want to do with my life is: I want to be a full time writer, and whatever it is I am doing now is just simply a way for me to earn the money; Financial freedom. For my overseas trip; learn new things. I mustn’t forget that. And I should try to stop being depressed. I know I keep forgetting it and enter depressive state.

That aside, in the evening, my friends and I went to watch a movie. I’m just exhausted now. So that’s all.