Journal #332

A massive pang of disgruntlement and dissatisfaction struck. The world looked like it was all dark and hopeless. You didn’t know what else you could do. You wanted to give up. You wanted to shred every single piece of work you have ever done because you thought, ‘what’s the point?’

In this world, full of writers of both non-fiction and fiction, what makes you any better than those people? Nothing.

In this world, full of programmers, what makes you any better than those people? Nothing.

So you feel like you have nothing to contribute. Whatever you have done and will do, others have done it before. They came, they did, and now they are gone. Have you heard of them? No. Not all of them anyway.

You consistently put your work out but the quality isn’t consistent. You got your bad days. You got your good day. And you got your neither here or there days. You know that it’s fine. Nobody, ever, put out their best work consistently everyday. You have reconciled with that fact.

But have you?

Because the moment you go and look at the stats, the metric that determines whether anyone consumes your content, you realized that no matter what you have done, those numbers never quite go anywhere.

The question is, why do you still care? It has always been all about what you have done better than previous. Yet those numbers still gets you down.

It’s really simple. You are still stuck in that mindset of treating it as a scorecard. You are still comparing yourself against the world. A persistent low score means you failed.

But have you?

No, you haven’t.

This is what you need to do.

  1. Consistently build up your skills to write better so that you can squash that thing call insecurity.
  2. Find a better platform. A more minimalistic platform where there are no numbers so that you can focus only on the one thing that matters: Your writing.
  3. Re-audit your surroundings. Your friends, your parents, your surroundings. Are they helping or holding you back. Cut or remove the bad ones or reduce your time spent. Find new ones.
  4. Re-evaluate if the way you publicize your works are getting you anywhere. If the publicizing platforms aren’t channeling more readers your way, cut them. It’s superfluous and a waste of your time.
  5. Put in a system. It has to be a system that you can consistently follow to consistently write more and improve your overall health. Poor health means you can’t do anything good.
  6. Go out. See the world and step out of your comfort zone every now and then.
  7. Finally, decide on what is success. What is your definition of success when it comes to writing?

All the above applies to your programming. After all, it’s a form of writing.

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