It’s hard to tell the difference between depression and low mood. All I know is I lack the motivation to do anything. So I spent the start of my afternoon napping. After an hour and a half, I went for a run.
Unlike the past where I could run up to 10 kilometers, now I could only run up 4 kilometers now without feeling completely floored and thirsty. My whole body started aching at around 2 kilometers mark.
On the topic of physical fitness, I realize many of my joints are no longer flexible and can’t bend without pain. There are knots all over. I think it’s time to change that situation. I suppose it’s because of this lack of physical fitness it’s making me suffer from lower levels of energy.
Or maybe it’s an age thing. After all, I’m not that young.
After the run, I took a shower and went for lunch at Ichiban Boshi. Then I went to get two boxes of green tea because it’s been a long time since I drank any on a daily basis. I suspect not drinking tea has contributed to me gaining weight and I’m not blind to the fact there are of course many factors in my life. Lack of activity is one of them.
When I got home, I started watching Jessica Jones season 2. I watched until episode 2 and decided to stop because I just didn’t think binge watching is a good idea now.
After dinner with my dad, I came back to start writing an article. As I wrote it, I find myself struggling with the content. I dug deeper and realized I wasn’t clear enough about my objective of writing the article. My thoughts were everywhere, thus making me present it in an incoherent manner. I spent nearly two hours on it, writing and editing it. Even now, I still don’t think it’s good enough. I’m feeling insecure about it yet it doesn’t change the fact that I need to publish it.
As soon as I was done with writing the article, I came across a trailer for a show call Perfect on Gizmodo and thought it looked really interesting.
It’s a good thing that I put the article away down for an hour. When I went back to it to edit some more, I saw more incoherent stuff and edit some more. At around 11.40pm, I decided to publish that article because I don’t see the point of holding it back anymore. If it suck, it suck. I will just learn from it.