Daily Log #25

Today being Good Friday is a public holiday in Singapore and there is no need to work. My family and I decided make this day Tomb-Sweeping Day, also known as Qingming Festival amongst the Chinese in this region, Taiwan and China. So we spent most of our morning heading two columbariums in Singapore to pay our respects.

Most Chinese in Singapore had the same idea and the columbariums were packed full of people. At the first columbarium, it was difficult for us to find a spot for us to put our offerings but it’s expected because it’s the most popular one in Singapore amongst the Chinese due to its location, accessibility, and the general sense of premium. For my family, we got a private hire bus to get us there, so transportation wasn’t an issue. The biggest issue we had was having our eyes flooded with tears due to the huge amount of incense smoke in the air and the burning of joss papers.

By around 2 in the afternoon, we were done and headed home. For some weird reason, I didn’t feel particularly hungry and pretty much skip having any heavy lunch. What I had was a bowl of cereal with milk before taking a nap. It was only until 5.30pm that I woke up and feeling kind of hungry. So I ate a kueh to keep me going until dinner.

I didn’t do much in the evening either except deciding to play some games. I went on Steam and browsed the store for games to get. Turns out there were some titles that were on sale so I got Outcast (all three of them) for SG$14.90 and Surviving Mars. Then I went to install Surviving Mars first. However, I play Ghost Recon Wildlands instead for a few hours before switching to Surviving Mars.

After playing those two games, I can’t help but wonder what has gotten into me because I don’t find myself enjoying playing video games any more. I couldn’t identify the real issue plaguing me except attributing it to age. But I don’t think that’s really the reason. I’m looking for that passion back, that energy back that would allow me to play games hours on end without stopping. Now, it’s all gone and kind of depressing…