Daily Log #127

These past few days I have been asking myself if I’m ready to make the leap.

The leap to go for a 4-day workweek with Friday or Wednesday off that will most likely result in up to 20% drop in my take home income, after deducting for government mandated retirement fund known as CPF.

Now given our current work environment, 4-day workweek is most likely consider a part-time employment and that means a lot of benefits associated with full-time employment doesn’t apply.

The reason why I want to go for that is so that I actually have more time to do the things I love and to cultivate new hobbies. Not only that, I wanted to have more time so that I can bring my health back into shape.

And you know what else I have found when I actually work lesser, given my past experience as a freelancer?

I’m actually more productive because I’m happier. So that means more is done. It’s actually better for my employers because they get better work quality from me and earlier. The latter being because of fewer number of workdays, I would be inclined to give all I got just to get stuff done. I like to think that I will reduce the amount of time I spent idling and gossiping with my colleagues.

The one thing I am wondering now is if my current company will allow this arrangement given that I’m bound under a two year contract with a set of rather restrictive terms.

And to even trigger this conversation would mean I need to actually submit my resignation letter.

I just don’t think it’s the right time to do that given it’s near the end of the year. Three more months and we will be welcoming 2019. During this three months, most human resource departments will be understaffed as people go on holiday. And even if I secure an interview with a potential employe, there will be a need for a lot of negotiation as new employers won’t want to hire me if they know I have to go for military reservist in Feb 2019. So getting a new job will have to happen in March 2019. Typically, it’s best that you worked at a company for six months or more before you can go for reservist. I for one has not intention of deferring that training session because it will upset my overall military training schedule.

But it’s still something I want to go for. I will lay the groundwork now and make the leap when I’m ready. First, I need to secure a decent amount of savings for rainy days and emergencies. Right now, I just don’t think I have enough, especially to live in Singapore. It’s such an expensive city to live in. Second, I will need to set expectations with my family because they would want to continue to receive the same amount of money from me but I don’t think I can give. Not if I need to maintain the same amount of savings I do now. Third, I will need to clear my pre-existing debt…the credit card debt I acquired because of this acne scar treatment that cost $7,400.

And you know what, it’s probably a good idea not to get myself into more debt by wanting the latest computer, or in my case, the latest MacBook. I went to Apple’s online store and chose the parts that I want. The final price tag turns out to be $5,528 and that’s without the Apple Care that I usually get with all my Apple purchases.

There’s one other thing that’s holding me back from actually making that purchase. I recognize that I don’t need it. No matter how I see it, I just don’t. My main job relies on a desktop computer in office and I write programs in a Windows environment. The only time I use my Mac is when I’m at home and usually I’m using it to watch videos and write. So why the hell do I need a Core i9 processor, 32GB ram and 1TB SSD MacBook Pro? Besides, my freelance work is mostly dead, as in I am not expected to do anything already. My recent message to the manager already said as much. And even if there’s any, it will be quick fixes. It’s not like I need to build a brand new application from scratch that need me to run servers.

So if I do ever end up needing that kind of processing power, it would mean that I’m actually using my MacBook for work or that my new job allows bring your own device. Something I don’t foresee…until proven otherwise.

5 thoughts on “Daily Log #127

  1. I’m the same way with part-time vs. full-time work. I am definitely a “sprinter.” I can give 110% for shorter times. But asking me to do a full 9-5 job 5 days a week, and I’ll burn out in a month. I have no mental stamina for that kind of environment. I’ve tried that kind of schedule with 3 different occupations and it was not beneficial! There were days when I worked from home and I was way more productive… I find that daily commutes and transportation really zap the energy out of me.

    1. I have always done full 9-5 job, 5 days a week since I started working with the exception of my university days when I work as a freelancer. I definitely prefer the freelancer style because I find myself more productive because I work at home and I have created a nice, cosy space for that to happen. I can’t say the same for offices. Yes, you can attempt to customize your workspace to help but at the end of the day, it’s still not your space because you don’t own it. The company does. It is this thing that keep nagging at the back of my head that prevent me from fully ever become comfortable enough to sit there for long hours.

      But I have also come to recognize that 9-5 isn’t that bad if your job role is really specialized or that you find a way to push away responsibilities that aren’t yours and get to focus on doing the thing that inspires you or make you happy.

      I don’t know what was your situation that lead to your rapid burnouts. For me, I do have my fair share of burnout from full-time 9-5 work and that’s usually because I’m not doing the thing that I love or when the demands placed on me is too much. The latter being because I’m afraid of saying “no”. And I’m a highly-sensitive person. Too much stuff will pretty much overwhelm me and cause me to shutdown.

      And yes! I hate daily commutes too because of the crowd, potential train breakdowns, etc. How I wish I have my own personal chauffeur. 😉

      1. I completely empathize!! I’m also highly sensitive. I really do aim to please, and I’m not good with employers who only point out the 1% wrong and give no credit where credit is due. I shutdown then, definitely.

        I worked two different 9-5 office jobs. One was with a company who was very unprofessional and the managers singled me out and treated me very unfairly. And the other was a start up company that was way over my head and experience, so I felt like I couldn’t grow no matter how much I tried. Plus I hated both of those tasks.

        However, I just got hired at a place I KNOW I’m going to love because it’s what I love to do. I start that soon and I’m so excited. I doubt I’ll burn out, but who knows!

        This will be my first job I actually love since I finally found my passion. 🙂 Thank you for the conversation. Can’t wait to read more of your thoughts!

      2. I joined a startup before, so I know how it feel like. I was pretty much drowning then. I tried to fake it till I make it. And subsequently slipped into depression because I blamed myself for failing to grow fast enough when it wasn’t that case at all. I forgot to be myself and aimed to fulfill what was requested of me because I really wanted to make my bosses happy. But it was clear that I’m not the kind of person who will strive in a startup, fast growth environment.

        And I’m glad that you found your passion. Good luck with your new job! 😀

        But I also have to point out that passion can also lead to burn out if one forget to take a step back and relax. I learnt that the hard way. I love programming so much that I kept doing until I actually burn out during my university days. I couldn’t even find the energy to do my assignments and my teammates had to pick up the mess. I still feel mildly guilty about it til this day and it’s been like four years.

        And saying no is a skill that takes practice. Some managers will take offense if you say no. But never blame yourself for that. I know mine will take offense because they are from the generation where working up to 14 hours a day or working on weekend is the norm. But saying no is highly necessary, especially if you are highly-sensitive. You need to take care of you first. It serves no one if you are burnt out and fall ill because of it.

        What I do is to find a way to tell my superiors no in a respectful way and point out that I work best when I get adequate rest, no one disturb me, and let me focus on one task at a time. I always have proven to them that’s always the case. Thus they learnt to pretty much leave me alone to do my thing. When they do see the final result of my work, they are always happy because of the higher quality delivery.

        And correct me if’m wrong, I believe if you are a highly-sensitive person, the amount of attention and love you give to a single task is equivalent of throwing yourself at it until you completely empty of energy. Because I’m like that too.

      3. That’s wonderful that you had employers that gave you a chance. The start up employer expected all of us to be pulling 14-16 hour days, when in reality I couldn’t find that much work and a lot of my work was dependent on other people who weren’t getting stuff done!

        I’m getting better at saying no, definitely. I’m not too afraid to say it, but for my own health I’ve been practicing that. My husband is all about making sure I don’t burn out and that I schedule time to recharge. So if I’m not on top of it, I have someone else to keep me accountable. 🙂

        And you’re right! I focus myself 100% at a task, especially if it’s a task I enjoy of I’m confident in. Sometimes I’m so productive from the time I wake up for about 5 hours straight, its barely noon and I’m exhausted! 😂🤷🏽‍♀️ I understand why people drink coffee but I surely don’t!

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