No…I’m not dead yet

You may be wondering where did I go as this blog hasn’t seen any major update for months.

Well, as the title stated, I’m not dead yet. For the past few months, I’ve been busy with my day job as a software engineer. Whatever free time that I managed to get have been spent on watching YouTube, reading books and Netflix. And I have recently added Prime Video.

What about my writing?

I’m still doing it but not with the same intensity or enjoyment as before. And instead of original contents, I have been doing curations in the form rewriting news that I’m interested in for my other blogs.

Now I wonder… is rewriting news even considered as writing?

Year 2020: New Beginnings

The time is 2357hrs on Jan 1, 2020 when I started writing this entry and by the time I post it, it will be the 2nd day of the new year.

I don’t have any new year resolution, nor will I define one for the rest of the year.

But there will be a few things that I want to focus on.

I will be a better writer than I was in 2019.

I will be a better software developer than I was in 2019

I will work on my confidence and self-esteem issues and be a better version of me in 2020.

And I have no doubt there will be a ton of setbacks and growing pains.

But I will keep fighting on, to live a life that I want and be able to tell my 80 year old self I have no regrets.

What are you?

In your professional life, are you a creator, a robot or somewhere in between?

Your answer reflects your attitude towards work. Therefore, it makes perfect sense for you to be getting the kind of salary you are getting.

If you don’t like what you are making in terms of income, why aren’t you changing your answer?

In your personal life, do you feel like you are a giver, receiver or somewhere in between?

Your answer reflects your attitude towards life in general. If you find that you are not feeling fulfilled, then maybe it’s time you review your mindset and change.

The house by the sea

Just imagine this.

You live in a house, built out of bamboo and wood, out by the sea. It sat on top of wooden pillars that served as the house’s foundation. They were hammered into the sea bed with the top of the pillars jutting above the sea as though they are struggling for air. But all is good. You got a house to live in and you are out here by the sea, enjoying what nature’s got to offer you.

Then, environment effects attacked the house and its foundation, eating away pieces of wood and bamboo. Years went by. Decades went by. Holes began to appear along the house walls and sections started falling apart. Simultaneously, the house is wobbly and sinking centimetres every year due to weakened foundation. The sea bed in which the pillars stood had grown soft and unable to support the weight of the house.

But it’s your house and you can’t move. You refuse to let it fall apart. And so, you went to work to patch up the house. Every day without fail, you are fixing something. You knew it’s going to be a life long work.

Sadly, that’s not the only thing you have to deal with. You live with bad neighbours. Every time you patch up a section of your house, your neighbours come along and throw rocks at your house causing further damage. And you just keep patching.

And one day, you slipped and hurt yourself so badly that you almost couldn’t move. The pain was unbearable. Yet, you still keep going. You don’t really have a choice. Your house is falling apart, allowing the elements in. You are either wet, cold or too hot. The house can’t keep you in a goldilocks state.

So you work even though the world is against you.